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Hello wordpress!
Its been a while since i update anything in this blog. And dont blame me. Blame the campus. I dont know why they block this site. They banned it beause of PORNOGRAPHY! WTH! Urghhh…… -____-’

* and anyway, u can scroll through my other blog as well.
udrivemeinsane.blogspot.com

~toodles!

Emo!

I am currently in my emo mood right now. And i dont even know why. Dayum~ It’s mother’s day this Sunday. I wish that i can celebrate it my lovely mum. I miss her. :’( A LOT! I wish i can sit with her right now, talk to her about everything that i feel. Yeah, there’s smthg that im hiding right now. But i dont know what is it specifically. Geesssshhh~ I totally need someone right now. Who can give me advices and shit. Gaaaahhhh!

Yeayyy!!!!

Im goin back in less than 5 hours. Yeayyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BUT…………………………………………………………
I still have a BUNCH of FUCKING assignments to do which due TOMORROW!
Wooohhhoooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Nadeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaa!!!!

Im gonna die soon!

 

Im seriously gonna die soon. Die under bunch of ASSIGNMENTS! Damn!
I have my presentation tomorrow,
2 essay submit on Friday,
World History individual assignment submit on Friday,
Media Journal submit on Friday,
Malaysian Studies, submit on Thursday,
and im goin back Kuching on Thursday evening.
OMG!
And i haven’t start a single SHIT at all.

Yeay~
Good Luck lah to me.
Urgh…

 

Xoxo,
Nadeeeeeeaaa!!!!!

Emo!

Im currentlly listening to this song now. I love this song and the lyrics mean a lot to me! Syg, wish u could concentrate more on my favourite song because the lyrics are the wwords that im afraid to say.

 

Broken-hearted Girl lyrics

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No…No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would’ve walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain’t gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

Xoxo,
Nadea.

 

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Im feeling down and im having period pain now. Damn it! Argh. I feel like goin sumwhere i can scream as LOUD as i can. Im so stressssss and depress! I feel like drinking beer. Specifically, CARLSBERG! Someone, please buy for me. Urghhhhh!

 

Xoxo,
Nadea.

Blogging?

I realised that i dont blog much now compared to last year. I dont know why. Hmph… And i realised that my blog is getting lame. Its not that i dont wanna blog but i just dont know what to write. Everytime i wanted to update my blog, my brain would automatically turn off. Haishh.. Somehow, i regret deleting my old blog. Lol.
STUPID ME!
Just because of i hate those memories that was written in there doesnt mean that i have to create a new blog and end up regretting it right? Hmpmh.. Bodoh! Huhu.. 

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Memories? 
Speaking about memories, everyone have their own good or bad memories right?
Same goes to me.
Sometimes when I flashback the memories, i would smile or cry.
Sometimes, i even wish that i could turn back time or have the ability to delete all those fucking memories.
But then, when i think about it again, that’s life. Life sucks huh?
Somehow, those memories taught me a lot of things. It taught me to be strong and tough.
Without all those memories, i wont be who i am now. And like what people always say, learn from your mistakes.
I did and im glad for being who i am now.
I dont care whether people like me or hate me. I am just being myself.
At least im not pretending to be good just to impress everyone right?
Everyone have their own weakness.
So do i.
To all the people out there who loves to bitch about me,
GO AND GET A LIFE DARLING!

Xoxo,
Nadea.

Bad Luck!

I guess 2009 is a bad luck year for me. I’ve been suffering from lots of things throughout this year. Firstly, i lost someone i really love. Someone who changed me, somehow who taught me lots of things, somehow who really show me the meaning of love, someone who i would share my life with. I was so fucking frustrated for the whole 2 weeks and a half until Emilio came into my life. Then, im able to move on. Thanks sayang. Secondly, i have to go for my breast lumps operation. Twice some more! Damn!!! Then i have to be apart from Emilio, my family and my friends. This week, Michelle and i missed 2 classes straight! We are locked out the room for 3 times and it is so fucked up! Today, i have to go for my root canal. And i have to go for the treatment every week until my teeth heals. It hurts like hell!!! Another bad news for me is my wisdom tooth grow in the wrong direction and i might need to go for a minor operation. WTH! I have to suffer all the pain.. Haissshhh.. What a bad luck year for me.

 

Xoxo,
Nadea.

Haishh…

Sometimes, his words skip the beats of my heart when he tell me he loves me,how important i am to him and  how much he dont wanna lose me being in his life. But then, there are times when i dont feel like he loves me and i dont feel like he’s serious. Its not that im making my own assumptions. But this is what i feel. Well, its my first time being in a long-distance relationship. Somehow, as his girlfriend, i want to know everything. Im not controlling him but i just want to know. At least it shows that how important i am to him. But usually, i’ll be the last to know from him. It kinda hurts me though. I dont know what to do. If i keep it to myself, its gonna burden me and i know once i explode, its gonna be very dangerous. But if i tell him directly, we’re gonna argue and im scared that he might get annoyed or smthg. As what i heard from him bout his ex, they used to argue each and every day and he get annoyed. He cant stand it. That is why i try to keep things to myself eventhough its gonna hurt me. I dont wanna control him. I love him and i wanna save our relationship. I tried as hard as i can to be understanding. And i tried as hard as i can to be the best. Hmph.. Whatever lah. I know i am ONLY his girlfriend and i have NO RIGHTS AT ALL to control his life. :’) Starting from now on, i’ll just go with the flow. I know i’ve done many mistakes which leads us to arguements lately. So yeah, i guess i’ll just follow his footsteps lah. I’ll try not to think negative, i’ll try not to get angry, i’ll try not to control his life eventhough i feel that i have never control him in anything he wanna do. Ugh.. I dont know y im feeling like this now. Maybe because of my previous relationship, i used to be the one who is in control of everything. And now i just realise that Emilio is another different person and i cant expect him to treat me like how the others treat me. Haisshh,sometimes i just need some attention from him and that’s all. Nothing much. But.. argh.. Whatever lah… I malas wanna think anymore. What i can do now is just to pray that our relationship would last longer coz i do really love him. I wish he knows what i feel. :’(

 

Xoxo,
Nadea.

Camwhoring!

Mishi and i were using the same pair of clothes last night to watch futsal match. Ahaks! We kinda like it and we wore the same pair of clothes again today! Hahaha!

 

 

 

Hahaha.. We were bored this evening, so we decided to have a walk at the lakeside and take some pictures of the sunset. Here there are. Mishi is GOOD in taking and editing pictures. I love it! But then, its just that i dunno how to pose! Sobs

 

 

 

 

 

 

I loike the pics!!!!!

Xoxo,
Nadea.